In my life I had some good and bad years before, but I never had quite the year that I had in 2006. This year I went through alot of pain mentally and emotionally. My family were also suffering beside me in this year of agony. It literally felt like I was fighting Satan himself disguised as life. He just whaled away at will with a flurry of super punches that I could not block or dodge from. There were no referee, judges, and doctors to stop this beating. It was just him and me in the ring. This was my journey into hell on earth.
It was New Year’s day. I was hoping that 2006 would be a better year then 2005. I just won an Eric Clapton box set off Ebay for a couple of dollars. I remember thinking this would be the year for us. I guess I was feeling that way because I needed hope that my father would get better, and my grades would turn around. I was extremely wrong about that. Well my dad was dying day by day in the hospital. He died a month and a half later which was devastating. The viewing and funeral completely crushed me in half like a car crusher. When he died guilt and regret eat away at will inside of me. A few weeks passed and I caught the virus. I was constantly going to the bathroom with vomiting and diarrhea. This went on for five days, it was the worst pain I felt in a long time. A month later DHS came and threatened my mom that they would take me and my little sister away. I didn’t know why until my mom told me that my stepfather molested my little sister. My mom had no idea that it happened until it was to late. When I found out about this I gotten so angry, that I was punching a wall and shouting I was going to kill him until my knuckles were bleeding. It took me a week to calm down from that news of shock.
Back at school I was doing better but still I was in a huge hole grade wise. This was against teachers who could not teach or taught subjects that were extremely boring. Well somehow I passed but it wasn’t over yet. Since my stepfather wasn’t living with us, it put more burden on my mom to work. Not only was she paying bills but also a $2000 mortgage to a criminal corrupt corporation (American General Finance). They didn’t care about the molestation or our families struggles. All they wanted was there stinking money. My mom had two jobs that put a tremendous pounding on her bad legs and feet. Everyday she was in agony and pain. We were collecting social security, but the government kept slashing our checks. Then they took a check permanently away from my mom. They said she made to much which is false and ridiculous. We couldn’t collect my father’s pension because the union took it away legally. My older siblings began to suffer as well. My older sister began drinking more and my brother was doing drugs. The drugs were destroying the good man I knew in him. My best friend of the whole world was in serious trouble with a life changing operation. She needed help which put a tremendous amount of pressure and stress on me, because I really loved her like a sister. I wanted to help her and I just couldn’t stand there and do nothing. I asked around for help but I gotten no luck. Finally I asked a relative and not only did he help me once, but three times he helped me. This wasn’t easy to do cause I hate to ask people for money or help. I like to do and earn things myself. I couldn’t believe he did that for me and I am extremely grateful to him. My grandfather was suffering from a near heart attack. He had to be in the hospital for a few weeks and needed a pacemaker. Meanwhile I was being consumed with anger, guilt, sorrow, pain, regret, and remorse. There were alot of days were I was contemplating suicide. It was really bad and even as the year ended it still wasn’t over yet. The bad momentum continued into the next year. My uncle passed away, my mom was getting worse, my grades for the 11th grade were awful, a stone wall had fallen onto our house. I’d say May of 2007 was when things started to get better.
Looking back, passing 10th grade in that year, facing all the adversity and turmoil was tremendous. That to me was my biggest accomplishment pf my life. I wouldn’t have been able to done it without the help of ten people including my three best friends. They went out of there way to help me out. I continue to thank them for there help and I will never forget it. To my relative who helped me to helped my best friend. I thank you everyday of my life for what you have done. Someday I’ll return those favors to you. If I can’t then I hope the laws of karma will reward you and your family with happiness and outstanding good luck. I also liked to thank my boss and friend who helped me get a job at the end of that year were the Philadelphia Eagles play. Well my family and my best friend are doing alright. Although life isn’t perfect or great for them they continue to live life the best they can. My father and uncle I know are in a better place. My stepfather did go jail but his punishment was light. I have a feeling his harshest punishment is yet to come in the next life. American General Finance has finally taken our house away from us. The stone wall has yet to be repaired but that is there problem now not ours. As for me I feel stronger then I have before. I have taken life’s best shots and I am still here. Now I feel I can take it. I can take any punishment that life has to offer. I am still standing and that’s what counts.