To all my friends,
Thank you so much for your kind words and comforting support during the recent loss of my husband. I apologize for not taking the time to personally contact each and every one of you at this time. But rest assured; I eventually will.
I am working full time while diligently trying to put Al’s memorial together. It is scheduled for June 27th, the day after our 10th wedding anniversary. I still have so much to do. The overwhelming response from friends all over the world has been amazing. I am so proud of my husband.
Al never fully realized how much he was loved, or what an impact he had made in other peoples lives. I think people who have struggled to overcome a mental illness often fail to recognize their full worth, and that is so sad. He was the love of my life and it will never be the same without him.
The past few days and weeks have been an incredible journey for me, and I feel I have grown so much. It really is true that often one doesn’t fully appreciate the life around them until they lose someone very close and dear to them.
I have been telling everyone I meet that if you love someone dearly, please be sure and tell them so–every single day. You never know when that one missed opportunity might be your very last.
I feel so overwhelmingly blessed that my husband’s dying words were to me, “I’m having terrible chest pain right now . . . I love you . . . Got to go now. . . Bye . . .”
I called him on my cell phone from the hardware store inquiring about a part he had sent me to buy for the garden tiller. While home alone, he suffered a fatal heart attack. Anxiously returning home less than five minutes later, I found him lying flat on his back on our living room floor. Racing to him, I knelt and laid my hand on his bare chest. He wasn’t breathing. I felt the last fleeting beats of his heart as I desperately tried to feel his carotid pulse. He was only 53.
Life is so precious and short. Take this opportunity right now to tell someone dear how much he or she really means to you. I urge everyone reading this to reach out and try to mend a broken friendship. You may never get another opportunity.
Be a little nicer to that grouchy grocery clerk. Try not to take harsh words or others’ actions quite so personal. Remember, others are often distracted, dealing with their own issues. More than likely the driver of that car that just cut you off didn’t do it deliberately. They were just distracted; that’s all. There are many people around you that may just be having a bad day. So try to remember not to take things quite so personal as it is often just them, not you.
You might be pleasantly surprised how much a smile and a little kindness mean to others. Keep smiling and have a nice day!